Posted by: check868 | April 29, 2008

It’s a Small World, Unfortunately

So, today at work (9-5 work) I was talking on AIM with the nice submissive I hooked up with a week ago. We were talking about fairly innocuous things, which was good, because my coworker leaned over, looked at my conversation, and was like, “Hey, you know Tom Jones?!” I nearly had a heart attack.

“Do YOU know Tom Jones?” I asked him.

“Yeah, we’re friends. I went to high school with him.” Big strike against Tom Jones. My annoying coworker spun around to his computer, where he began writing an IM to Tom, which I imagined would go something like, “How do you know Tara?” To which Tom Jones would reply, “Who the hell is Tara?” (I go by Jessica with the BDSMers.) I freaked.

I frantically typed something like: “Myn ame isnyt rreally jessica, dont refer tome as jessica to him!” as fast as I possibly could and sent it to Tom.

Thank goodness Tom was cool about it. He had figured that I probably wasn’t using my real name, and apparently sated Annoying Coworker’s curiosity. So, I’m happy and I’m seeing Tom for dinner and abuse on Wednesday.

He asked if he could call me by my real name, and I said we’ll talk about it on Wednesday. I figure I won’t tell him anything more than I need to. He’s pretty smart, though, and I’m worried that he’ll be able to figure out why a pretty girl would have email, a screen name, and a phone under a phony name. I had this all planned out: if things got serious with someone, I could sit them down and be like, “I have something to tell you…” and tell them everything, and then continue the relationship with them knowing the whole truth. Now it looks like there’s going to be this slow dribble of truth, and I doubt he’ll ever trust me. I feel bad lying to him, but I don’t know if he’s trustworthy, yet. I’m not going to tell everyone I have a one night stand with, “Hey, guess what I do for money?”

It’s complicated, this business of having a secret life. Or, at this point, layers of secret lives: my “real” life, my secret BDSM life, and my super-secret escort life.


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